The Astonishing Color of After by Emily X.R. Pan

The Astonishing Color of After

Leigh Chen Sanders is absolutely certain about one thing: When her mother died by suicide, she turned into a bird.Leigh, who is half Asian and half white, travels to Taiwan to meet her maternal grandparents for the first time. There, she is determined to find her mother, the bird. In her search, she winds up chasing after ghosts, uncovering family secrets, and forging a new relationship with her grandparents. And as she grieves, she must try to r...

Details The Astonishing Color of After

TitleThe Astonishing Color of After
Release DateMar 20th, 2018
PublisherLittle, Brown Books for Young Readers
GenreYoung Adult, Magical Realism, Contemporary, Fiction, Fantasy

Reviews The Astonishing Color of After

  • Korrina (OwlCrate)
    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I’ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite.
  • Emily Pan
    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars?NEWS:THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER was chosen for the Indies Introduce list! Check out these amazing bookseller blurbs:There are already blurbs from some incredible authors, too:“Emily X.R. Pan's brilliantly crafted, harrowing first novel portrays the vast spectrum of love and grief with heart-wrenching beauty and candor. This is a very special book.”— John Green, bestselling author of T...
  • Liz Barnsley
    5* genuinely feels inadequate.This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. There is literally nothing I can say right now without sobbing again and I have to go to work. So review to follow.Everybody read this book.
  • Bri
  • Julie
    I DEVOURED this book on the plane. The writing is absolutely exquisite and heart-wrenching, and the characters well-rendered and humanly flawed. A truly moving portrait of grief, complicated family relationships, and the secrets we keep even from our loved ones. Maybe especially our loved ones. Keep an eye on this beautiful book! I predict it will win many awards and accolades in addition to the ones it already has.
  • alice (arctic books)
    3.5 stars. Full review to come!
  • Emily Cait
    Freaking. Glorious!Content warning for suicide. This book does get somewhat graphic given Leigh's tendency to think in terms of colour and art supplies. I'd recommend that you skip this book (despite it being absolutely phenomenal) if you are not prepared to read about the trauma and grief of death by suicide. I LOVED the writing! So beautiful. And the use of colour throughout to gauge emotions was actually really powerful and I loved every momen...
  • Milena
    The Astonishing Color of After is an exquisitely written and a deeply emotional tale of losing family and finding family, grief, self-discovery, the distractive power of secrets, and the healing power of love. From the gorgeous cover to the very satisfying last chapter this book mesmerized and captivated me. The Astonishing Color of After is a unique story that will stay with me for a long time. *ARC provided by the publisher in exchange for an h...
  • Angel
    I wish I could command my brain, say to it: Here. Go ahead. Unspool, and let the memories go. Let them be gone.This book took me apart. There is beauty here as poignant and powerful as loss. I am sure that I will return to it every year, and I am sure that there will always be something new for me to find in its pages.
  • Emily
    This book is SO GORGEOUS (yes, the cover is beautiful, but the writing is insanely beautiful). I was mad every time I had to put it down because I wanted to immerse myself in it so fully. I loved the way the past and present (and memories and a little magic) are woven together as Leigh struggles with the loss of her mother. Leigh is an artist and this was brilliantly captured in the way that art and color are imperative to how she sees the world ...
  • K.A.
    Review to come. But know this: I am drunk on beauty and language and color and my heart being wrung out on the floor after reading this wonder of words. This has taken a very rare place on my all-time favorites list as one of my most beloved and cherished reads. Somehow my heart and past are tangled up in the pages of this story. For now, THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER is a masterpiece. Totally blown away.
  • A Lib Tech Reads
    Title: The Astonishing Color of AfterAuthor: Emily X.R. PanRating: 5/5Note:Special thanks to Hachette Books for providing a copy for review. This review can also found at the R.C Palmer Library book review blog.I love, love, LOVE THIS BOOK. This has everything I love in it: beautiful and lyrical writing, an accurate representation of Taiwanese culture, wonderful characters who develop and mature through the novel, a slow burning romance that does...
  • USOM
    The Astonishing Color of After is instantly lyrical. Pan sweeps us off our feet, mesmerizing us with words that roll off our tongue and imagery that transcends the pages. I cannot sing this book's praise loud enough. The frequent memories interspersed in the story feel organic and serve not only to show us more sides of Leigh, but of her whole family. The Astonishing Color of After is both Leigh's personal journey with grief, but also her own exp...
  • Elizabeth Smith (BookishConnoisseur)
    I will write a review soon (once I dry my tears), but I absolutely loved this book and it will stick with me for a long time.Full review posted here: https://bookishconnoisseur.wordpress....Thank you so much to TheNovl for sending me an ARC of this book!
  • Cheryl Prazak
    Emily X.R. Pan’s debut book is a heartbreakingly beautiful story told through a young girl’s way of coping with her mother’s depression and ultimately suicide. This story goes between the past and the present seamlessly through the main character, Leigh, who travels to Taiwan after her mother’s death to meet her grandparents for the first time in her life. Even though they don’t speak the same language, they bring comfort to each other....
  • Fie Sejr Ravn Jensen
    tw // suicide & depressionThis book, man. This book. As always I have no idea how to gather my thoughts in full after finishing a book, but I like to put down my thoughts immediately after finishing while my emotions are still raw & the memory fresh. So here are my thoughts in fractions which will be non-spoilery:- First of all I really appreciate Emily X. R. Pan for including suicide hotlines in the back in a book that deals with such a heavy su...
  • Ameema Saeed
    I’m an Indigo Employee, and I received an advanced galley of this book, from the publisher, in exchange for my honest feedback.This was a breathtaking, beautiful, devastating book. I was blown away by how beautifully written it was - there was so much vulnerability, and so much beauty, and so much pain - that you could actually feel each emotion, and see it depicted as its own vivid hue.Pan weaves this heartbreaking tale of love and loss - recu...
  • Lianna
    So, so, so beautiful. The prose, the story, the utter pain of grief and healing. For anyone who has been through a similar situation, this is sometimes hard to read but at the same time SO essential.
  • Trisha
    An intense study of grief balanced with a strong portrayal and endorsement for Art.
  • Leslie
    3.5 stars. I found the story compelling but at times the labeling of emotions with colors became too much for me. It interrupted the flow of my reading and I found it to be an awkward literary device. However, the story felt like an honest depiction of what life would be like with a severely depressed parent and I like how Leigh tried to come to terms with it. There's a nice little romance brewing in the story as well.
  • Sarah
    I really enjoyed the use of seeing colour to help determine emotion. This was my favourite aspect of the book. Having the main character, Leigh explain herself using colours was amazing. The tie in of the best friend asking "what colour" to determine Leigh's emotional state was awesome. I liked the author’s overall storyline but I don’t think I really liked the book. There were many pieces that I liked, the colours, the use of flashbacks to f...
  • Cindy
    I didn't know exactly what to expect going into this book, except that it sounded intriguing and had a host of star-studded blurbs and reviews. But over the weekend I got sick, and spent most of yesterday curled up on the couch, devouring the last half of THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER. For the whole rest of the day I felt slightly tipsy, a little hungover, still steeped in the lyricism and the surreality of Emily X. R. Pan's world. In many ways,...
  • Kath (Read Forevermore)
    "My mother is free in the sky. She doesn’t have the burden of a human body, is not made up of a single dot of gray. My mother is a bird.” - Emily X.R. Pan, The Astonishing Color of After.The Astonishing Color of After by Emily X.R. Pan is an amazing story and is definitely a FIVE-STAR read for me. And an Asian main character?!?! YES PLEASE! This book is SO perfect. The writing was just phenomenal and utterly heartfelt, and the characters were...