My Heart and Other Black Holes by Jasmine Warga

My Heart and Other Black Holes

Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Ayse...

Details My Heart and Other Black Holes

TitleMy Heart and Other Black Holes
Release DateFeb 10th, 2015
PublisherHarperCollins/Balzer + Bray
GenreYoung Adult, Contemporary, Romance, Health, Mental Health

Reviews My Heart and Other Black Holes

  • Jesse (JesseTheReader)
    trigger warning for suicide with this book. Where do I even begin? This story was at times hard to read, not because it was bad (it was AMAZING), but because it was so dark. I wanted to dive into this book and lead the characters in a different direction. I'm struggling finding words to express my feelings for this book. I'll just simply say, I loved it.
  • Emily May
    Does a dead body still have potential energy or does it get transferred into something else? Can potential energy just evaporate into nothingness? That’s the question I don’t know the answer to. That’s the question that haunts me.3 1/2 stars. This book was pretty much perfect until the big thing that made it not so perfect anymore. However, I still think it's a clever, addicting, sensitive, honest and insightful story about depression, espe...
  • Steph Sinclair
    I came really close to DNFing this book at 96% on principle alone because I was fed one thing in the beginning of the novel, only to be force fed something entirely different by the end. My Heart and Other Black Holes had so much potential--a lot of novel accurately described what it feels like to be depressed. So I was expecting a novel about discovering yourself, overcoming depression and finding something to live for. I was excited for it beca...
  • Etnik
    You can find the full review and more about this book on my blog!____________________________________________ “You're like a grey sky. You're beautiful, even though you don't want to be.” ____________________________________________First of all let's appreciate the cover.And not only this one,but every cover that this book has.They are all so beautifully done,so great job on that.My Heart and Other Black Holes is a contemporary novel,about...
  • Hailey (HaileyinBookland)
    I really enjoyed this. The whole idea of suicide partners provided a very different look at mental illness. I loved the striking honesty and the hope woven throughout the story. Really a great read.
  • Charlotte May
    3.5 stars ⭐ “Sometimes I wonder if my heart is like a black hole - it’s so dense that there’s no room for light, but that doesn’t mean it can’t still suck me in.” This was an honest look into teenage suicide. Aysel and Roman meet on an online forum designed for people to find ‘suicide partners’, a person they plan to commit suicide with. It took a while for me to like the main characters, it seems I’m that way with all charac...
  • Becky Albertalli
    I don't even know where to begin. This is such a special, weird, complicated, beautiful book. I'm a clinical psychologist who spent several years doing therapy almost exclusively with kids and teenagers. This is the book I wish my clients could have read. Aysel's voice is vivid and sad and quietly snarky - she's just so messy and real. She flips the switch from heartbreaking to hilarious in the span of a paragraph. She's sullen and brilliant and ...
  • Sue (Hollywood News Source)
    Review and playlist posted at Young Adult Hollywood.Disclaimer: I spent 90% of my time gross sobbing to the point I had to dry my tears, because I couldn't read what I was supposed to be reading. “I bet if you cut open my stomach, the black slug of depression would slide out. Guidance counselors always love to say, “Just think positively,” but that’s impossible when you have this thing inside of you, strangling every ounce of happiness y...
  • Christy
    4 stars! “Sometimes I wonder if my heart is like a black hole--it's so dense that there's no room for light, but that doesn't mean it can't still suck me in.” My Heart and Other Black Holes was a unique and at times painful YA read about dealing with depression and guilt. I felt that this story very accurately displayed what it’s like to feel that kind of depression and the desperation that comes along with it. It’s about Asyel and R...
  • Adam Silvera
    I read this book in one sitting, overnight, and I'm sure many others will find themselves sharing in this experience. MY HEART AND OTHER BLACK HOLES is a panoramic novel about existence, and Aysel and Roman's relationship - suicide partners - is an impressive combination of tragic and life-affirming. There's so much more I want to say, but I should STFU now until there are at least ARCs out in the world.
  • Chelsea ❤Peril Please❤
    *Roman's turn for 2015 favorite re-read!!!* :P "Be careful," he says."Why?" I’m not thinking about being careful. I’m thinking about one last push, of letting go, of flying, and of falling.“You aren’t allowed to die without me,” he whispers. *Indiscernible noise* Did you hear that? What’s that, you ask? That noise….what is that noise??? Let me tell you what that noise is: That’s the sound of my heart beating, my soul soaring, my...
  • Aj the Ravenous Reader
    3.5 stars rounded up because it’s my last book review for 2016 ^^It is my steadfast personal principle that my life is never mine to take and it’s why I try to avoid books on suicide as much as possible but I’ve heard a lot of good things about My Heart and Other Black Holes and I got really intrigued with the idea on “suicide partners” so I took the plunge and I could now say that it was totally worth the risk. The two characters in th...
  • Rachel Reads Ravenously
    4 stars! “Maybe we all have darkness inside of us and some of us are better at dealing with it than others.” Sixteen year old Aysel is ready to die. Thrown in the aftermath of her father’s actions, she has been shunned and pulled away from everyone close in her life. An outcast at school and in her own home, Aysel has been spending her time browsing suicide websites where she meets Roman. They make a pact to kill themselves on a specifi...
  • Kai
    “You know, Zellie, there are enough broken things in the world. You shouldn't go around breaking things just for the fun of it.”2 StarsThe fact that I don't remember even reading this book after finishing it just 4 months ago says everything.This was not necessarily a bad book. Maybe I've already read too many similar books, but this felt like a beginner's guide to depression. A very important and very popular topic at the moment, but for me ...
  • Katie
    The beginning of this book was really difficult for me to read, but I'm really glad I stuck with it because I ended up really loving this story.
  • Arianna✦❋SteamyReadsBlog❋✦
    3.5 Stars!!If you didn’t know depression is a common mental disorder, characterized by sadness, loss of interest or pleasure, feelings of guilt or low self-worth, disturbed sleep or appetite, feelings of tiredness, and poor concentration. It affects more than 121 million people worldwide. It is not uncommon for depressed individuals to have thoughts about suicide whether or not they really intend to act on these thoughts. “My Heart and Other ...
  • Giselle
    My Heart and Other Black Holes delves into the lives of two suicidal teens who make a pact to be each other's suicide partner. Yes, this novel is messed up and sad and shocking at times to think that someone would want a sort of motivational coach to make sure they achieve death, but suicide pacts do happen, especially with teens, so no matter how effed up this is, it is real and all too heartbreaking. Still, this book is supposed to be an emotio...
  • Kayla
    Before reading MY HEART AND OTHER BLACK HOLES, I never expected that a book about a teen suicide pact could be so full of hope. And yet, that's exactly what I felt while reading it. Of course, it was the *heartbreaking* sort of hope, the kind where I grew to love Aysel and Roman, two characters who have so much passion and potential, yet direct that energy toward their mutual goal: helping each other die. Watching Aysel and Roman get to know each...
  • Spencer
    “Depression is like a heaviness that you can’t ever escape. It crushes down on you, making even the smallest things like tying your shoes or chewing on toast seem like a twenty-mile hike uphill. Depression is a part of you; it’s in your bones and your blood.” __________________________________This book will get under your skin and live inside you. It is tragic, empowering (it has a few hopeful moments), and beautiful. I can not get enoug...
  • Jacqueline
    "Maybe we all have darkness inside of us and some of us are better at dealing with it than others.”Oh where to begin...I loved how simple it was, how real it was, and how I was able to connect with it. The amount of times I had to take breaks from reading this book was ridiculous. I found with each page I was captivated by the story. Jasmine Warga handled the topics of depression and suicide perfectly by expressing the rawness of both situation...
  • Warda
    Wow, was not expecting for this book to have hit me as hard as it did. First of all, trigger warnings for suicide. MINOR SPOILERS AHEADSecondly, this is a tragic, heavy, but beautiful story about Aysel and Roman who have been affected by a loss of a loved one. For Aysel, it was her father who was imprisoned due to killing someone. Roman lost his younger sister due to a tragic accident that he blames himself for. Strangely, they both blame themsel...
  • Emer
    "Music, especially classical music, ... has kinetic energy. ...once the notes are in the air, they collide against one another. They spark. They burst. I spend a lot of time wondering what dying feels like. What dying sounds like. If I'll burst like those notes, let out my last cries of pain, and then go silent forever. Or maybe I'll turn into a shadowy static that's barely there, if you just listen hard enough." You know when a woman says that ...
  • Danielle (Love at First Page)
    I wonder if that's how darkness wins, by convincing us to trap it inside ourselves, instead of emptying it out. Wow. What a powerful and painful and beautiful book, though not at all in the way I was expecting. This book pretty much snuck up on me. It's normally not a "me" book anyway (depressing subject matter = Danielle runs for the hills), and halfway through I wasn't sure where it was going. It's actually quite funny thanks to a snarky narra...
  • Adita ✨The Slumbering Insomniac✨
    ★★★★★★★★☆☆[8/10]⏩Three things that made me want to pick this book from the three score books I had managed to adorn my library with, in the recent major-bookhaul. “This must be a sign from the universe-if the only time you get lucky is when you're planning your suicide, it's definitely time to go.” ✅ PHYSICS . (Notice that it is underlined and italicised and emboldened.) There is a good deal of Physics stuff in the ...
  • Rebecca McNutt
    A heartfelt look at depression and loneliness, My Heart and Other Black Holes is surprisingly brilliant, and not at all as preachy as other mental illness fiction can get.
  • ashley 🌈
    "Depression is a part of you; it's in your bones and your blood. If there's anything I know about it, this is what I know: it's impossible to escape."This story is so important to me, in so many ways. I've read it once before, and I'm sure I'll read it again. Aysel has been depressed for years, and has no hope for a better future after her father is sent to prison, leaving her to live with a mother who wants nothing to do with her, two half sibli...
  • Norah Una Sumner
    "My teacher, Mrs. Marks, makes this big production out of trying to decode what the poets were saying.From my perspective, it’s pretty clear:I’m depressed and I want to die. It’s painful to watch all my classmates tear apart each line, looking for the significance. There’s no significance.Anyone who has actually been that sad can tell you that there’s nothing beautiful or literary or mysterious about depression." Very unique and intere...
  • Sara (sarawithoutanH)
    I really liked Aysel as a narrator but ultimately I had issues with this book. I keep changing this review because the more I think about this book, the more I don't like it. I'll list them below in a spoiler section.(view spoiler)[I'm not an expert on depression, but I felt like the ending was a bit happy-go-lucky for what the tone had been earlier in the book. I thought the resolution was very sudden and every problem in the book seemed to righ...
  • Neil (or bleed)
    “I will be stronger than my sadness.” If not for that particular scene, I'd given this book a 3 stars or maybe even a 2 because I felt neutral reading the book, in the first place and I thought that I'm just reading a typical suicide book. And I don't appreciate the characters that much. But that particular scene triggered my thoughts and I realized what this book is all about. What message this book wants to impart.And I'm thankful. I did un...
  • Nur Raihan
    4.5 starsBefore I begin reading this book, I didn't knew that the story line is quite similar with All the Bright Places. I repeat, I didn't knew. All I knew was that is another book about depression that discusses mental health and suicidal thoughts. Yup, pretty much about it.So I blindly went reading the first few chapters in the book, and I enjoyed it. The story is about Aysel, who is a "lonely" teenager who was living in her father's shadow. ...