The Astonishing Color of After by Emily X.R. Pan

The Astonishing Color of After

Leigh Chen Sanders is absolutely certain about one thing: When her mother died by suicide, she turned into a bird.Leigh, who is half Asian and half white, travels to Taiwan to meet her maternal grandparents for the first time. There, she is determined to find her mother, the bird. In her search, she winds up chasing after ghosts, uncovering family secrets, and forging a new relationship with her grandparents. And as she grieves, she must try to r...


Details The Astonishing Color of After

TitleThe Astonishing Color of After
ISBN9780316463997
Author
Release DateMar 20th, 2018
PublisherLittle, Brown Books for Young Readers
LanguageEnglish
GenreYoung Adult, Contemporary, Magical Realism, Fantasy, Fiction
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Reviews The Astonishing Color of After

  • شيماء ✨
    2018-10-08
    This book made me CRY.C: cryR: right now, I'm going to cryY: yeah, that's right, I'm cryingThe Astonishing Color of After is the kind of book that guts you, and buoys you, rips out your heart and gives it back somehow bigger. I've been putting off writing this review for many days, because the inside of me still clenches with the memory of what I've read, and I didn't anticipate how hard it would be to keep control of all my tethers long enoug...
  • Emily May
    2018-03-04
    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother’s condition feel like this big secret?...“She’s forgotten how to be happy,” I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on instagram, this book was so quotable. There were so many beautiful thoughts, emotions and moments captured perfectly with words.I probably wouldn't have read The Astonishing Color...
  • Hailey (Hailey in Bookland)
    2018-02-20
    TW: suicide, depressionSuch a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religion element was excellently executed. Really enjoyed this one! My only complaint is it was a teensy bit too long IMO (though it did really insanely fast for the most par...
  • Melanie
    2018-04-23
    “If he looked in my eyes straight on, he would know how he’d pierced me with an arrow, how its shaft was still sticking out of my chest, twitching each time my heart contracted. And maybe he’d see how my mother had sliced up everything else.” This is one of the most beautiful books I’ve ever read in my entire life. It’s powerful, moving, poignant, lyrical, important, and touched me beyond words. From the discussion about mental healt...
  • Lola
    2018-04-25
    4.5 stars.Some books you read because they’re not unpleasant or you don’t have a choice in the matter.Other books you read because your body naturally gravitates to them, and for the sake of your sanity, you simply give in. This is one of those books. The writing is so evocative that you will feel the intensity of everything the main character goes through to the marrow of your bones and be able to picture it all in your mind like a movie. No...
  • Elise (TheBookishActress)
    2017-09-24
    Once upon a time we were the standard colors of a rainbow, cheery and certain of ourselves. At some point, we all began to stumble into the in-betweens, the murky colors made dark and complicated by resentment and quiet anger. At some point, my mother slid so off track she sank into hues of gray, a world drawn only in shadows. This deserved its spot on the NYT bestsellers list. Actually, it deserved higher and to stay longer.First of all, the wr...
  • Emily Pan
    2017-09-23
    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars?NEWS:THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It won the APALA Honor Award and the Walter Honor Award, was nominated for the Carnegie Medal, and was a finalist for the Goodreads Choice Awards in TWO categories: Best Debut Author and Best Young Adult Fiction!It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve book...
  • Khanh, first of her name, mother of bunnies
    2018-03-21
    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of suicide because of how unwilling we are to talk about our problem, and the unwillingness of our family to confront it.There have been numerous suicides among famous...
  • C.G. Drews
    2017-07-14
    Ohhhh this was emotional and super super sad and yet entirely gorgeously written. We have utterly been bLESSED by the existence of this author and her words and afjkdslad I want to read everything she ever writes. I absolutely love how the emotions were told in colours here. It made me just want to swim in a bucket of paint tbh. Right after I finished swimming in mY TEARS. I actually don't cry while reading, but I felt that hot prickle of tears b...
  • Larry H
    2018-05-07
    4.5 stars, rounded up.Lyrical, emotionally powerful, even fantastical at times, The Astonishing Color of After is a stunning, poignant look at grief, family, love, and secrets that packs a real punch, and leaves you with gorgeous images in your mind. "We try so hard to make these little time capsules. Memories strung up just so, like holiday lights, casting the perfect glow in the perfect tones. But that picking and choosing what to look at, wh...
  • Maggie
    2018-05-09
    Once upon a time we were the standard colors of a rainbow, cheery and certain of ourselves. At some point, we all began to stumble into the in-betweens, the murky colors made dark and complicated by resentment and quiet anger. At some point, my mother slid so off track she sank into hues of gray, a world drawn only in shadows. Contemporary and magical realism, a strange combination that does not happen often. First book I ever read that included...
  • Sana
    2018-07-01
    Trust me, no one's more disappointed than me because y'all don't know how bad I wanted to love this book!! I was just so bored during the middle 200 pages of this book because it's a very slow book + there was a lot of girl hate that annoyed me so much. But despite that, it's still an important and good book.This is a book about a girl whose mother has committed suicide. Leigh is suffering the loss of her mother, who she sees as a bird after her ...
  • destiny ♡⚔♡ [howling libraries]
    2018-06-18
    This is, without a doubt, one of the most beautiful books I have ever read, and it completely and utterly wrecked me. In case you aren’t aware, major trigger warnings for suicide and mental illness in the book and this review—proceed with caution and take care of yourself. ♥ My mother is free in the sky. She doesn’t have the burden of a human body, is not made up of a single dot of gray. My mother is a bird. First of all, the writing in ...
  • jessica
    2018-04-23
    can we all just take a moment to appreciate that this is a debut??!!? like, honestly. i am the astonishing colour of impressed. this book definitely didnt read like it was an authors first work. this was magic. just the imagery alone was outstanding - it showcased dealing with grief in such beautiful and colourful way! i really hope emily pan chooses to write another book because i need more of her writing! 4.5 stars
  • April
    2018-04-04
    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story.
  • Em Lost In Books
    2019-01-31
    This was the debut that I wanted to read most last year but I couldn't. The beautiful cover, equally intriguing blurb, and the all those glowing reviews, it piqued my interest in this story. So I decided to remedy it early this year before I get lured away into some other fantasy world. Oh boy, this was a disappointment. My own fault though, I guess I started with expecting too high.Leigh's mother commits suicide and she starts seeing a bird, whi...
  • may ❀
    2018-06-29
    im legit more disappointment in this book than i am in the world cup okay maybe thats a sliiiiight exaggeration this book started off SOSOSOSOSO GOOD but it was SO long and i started to find the writing grow so TEDIOUS and then the mystic plot just began to overwhelm everything and i just wasn't feeling it gahhhh im so sad. i wish it was more contemporary than mystic bc the magic realism aspect made me more confused and underwhelmed than anything...
  • Korrina (OwlCrate)
    2017-12-12
    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I’ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite.
  • Joshee Kun (조수아)
    2018-02-21
    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward.Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for saying that he didn't know why people get depressed. These events in the K-pop world piqued my interest and made me realize that depression isn't something that shouldn...
  • Eryn
    2018-04-02
    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn’t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel.Wow, okay, this book went through so many ups and downs. But it doesn’t matter because it ended up being more unique and touching than I thought it would/could be -- and I couldn't be any happier by that!The openin...
  • Lily ☁️
    2018-02-01
    A COPY OF THIS BOOK FOUND ITS WAY INTO MY HANDS TODAY, AND I’M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW MY HEART IS BURSTING.Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1’s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc)Pretty, pretty please, let me love this.*A female, half-Asian main character, a storyline set in Taiwan (!!!), and elements of mag...
  • Gabby
    2018-03-29
    Closer to a 4.5 stars "Memory is mean thing, slicing at you from the harshest angles, dipping your consciousness into the wrong colors again and again." Wow, this book was gorgeously written and heart-breaking and amazing. This story follows a young girl named Leigh who has just discovered her mother has killed herself. This story is about her discovering her families history that she never knew about, and going to her Mother's birth place, and d...
  • Yusra ✨
    2018-05-15
    that was one of the most beautiful books I have ever read in my life. it was stunning. I don’t have words. review to come when I can breathe again ————I am ready to be torn apart. buddy read with Caidyn and Melanie!
  • Terrie's Just Another Book B*tch
    2018-06-15
    Just Another Book Bitch's ALWAYS SPOILER FREE REVIEW For those familiar with the book... I have to share this picture. I read this on the beach during vacation and this crane decided to hang out with me! Those having read this book know the significance of the crane how amazing this is!! If someone asked me to describe this book in one word I'd have to say Heartbreaking.This hypnotic tale of tragedy is interwoven with a mystical aspect along with...
  • Amelia
    2018-04-27
    This book took a turn that I was not expecting at all. I loved the representation of mental illness and the way that Leigh deals with her mother suicide. There were times where I though the story was going a little too slow for me. I struggled to pick it up after I put it down. But after about half way through I was having trouble putting it down. Definitely recommend for people to read.
  • shady boots | #WatchPOSE
    2018-04-15
    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressionIt's strange to think that this whole time I had just been reading words on a screen, cause this book feels like a giant canvas where literally every color imaginable...