The Astonishing Color of After by Emily X.R. Pan

The Astonishing Color of After

Leigh Chen Sanders is absolutely certain about one thing: When her mother died by suicide, she turned into a bird.Leigh, who is half Asian and half white, travels to Taiwan to meet her maternal grandparents for the first time. There, she is determined to find her mother, the bird. In her search, she winds up chasing after ghosts, uncovering family secrets, and forging a new relationship with her grandparents. And as she grieves, she must try to r...


Details The Astonishing Color of After

TitleThe Astonishing Color of After
ISBN9780316463997
Author
Release DateMar 20th, 2018
PublisherLittle, Brown Books for Young Readers
LanguageEnglish
GenreYoung Adult, Contemporary, Magical Realism, Fantasy, Fiction
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Reviews The Astonishing Color of After

  • Chaima ✨ شيماء
    2018-10-08
    This book made me CRY.C: cryR: right now, I'm going to cryY: yeah, that's right, I'm cryingThe Astonishing Color of After is the kind of book that guts you, and buoys you, rips out your heart and gives it back somehow bigger. I've been putting off writing this review for many days, because the inside of me still clenches with the memory of what I've read, and I didn't anticipate how hard it would be to keep control of all my tethers long enoug...
  • Emily May
    2018-03-04
    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother’s condition feel like this big secret?...“She’s forgotten how to be happy,” I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on instagram, this book was so quotable. There were so many beautiful thoughts, emotions and moments captured perfectly with words.I probably wouldn't have read The Astonishing Color...
  • Hailey (Hailey in Bookland)
    2018-02-20
    TW: suicide, depressionSuch a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religion element was excellently executed. Really enjoyed this one! My only complaint is it was a teensy bit too long IMO (though it did really insanely fast for the most par...
  • Melanie
    2018-04-23
    “If he looked in my eyes straight on, he would know how he’d pierced me with an arrow, how its shaft was still sticking out of my chest, twitching each time my heart contracted. And maybe he’d see how my mother had sliced up everything else.” This is one of the most beautiful books I’ve ever read in my entire life. It’s powerful, moving, poignant, lyrical, important, and touched me beyond words. From the discussion about mental healt...
  • Teodora
    2019-06-20
    5 ⭐ because I don't have moreFull review on my Blog: The Dacian She-Wolf 🐺I don’t know what exact words to use in order to describe The Astonishing Colour of After . I work feeling to feeling with my books and this one was like a tropical rain of feelings washing over me. What exactly are words compared to feelings? Though, I’ll try. I SPIRITUALLY LOVED THIS.I was only a couple of pages through it when I realised that I am going to love...
  • Lola
    2018-04-25
    4.5 stars.Some books you read because they’re not unpleasant or you don’t have a choice in the matter.Other books you read because your body naturally gravitates to them, and for the sake of your sanity, you simply give in. This is one of those books. The writing is so evocative that you will feel the intensity of everything the main character goes through to the marrow of your bones and be able to picture it all in your mind like a movie. No...
  • Emily Pan
    2017-09-23
    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars?NEWS:* New York Times Bestseller* National Indie Bestseller* Winner of the APALA Honor Award* Winner of the Walter Honor Award* Winner of the Freeman Book Award* Winner of the 'Mental Health Matters' Book Shimmy Award* Winner of the Millikin Medal* Finalist for the LA Times Book Prize* Longlisted for the Carnegie Medal* Goodreads Choice Awards Finalist for Best Debut Author* Goodreads Choice Awar...
  • jessica
    2018-04-23
    can we all just take a moment to appreciate that this is a debut??!!? like, honestly. i am the astonishing colour of impressed. this book definitely doesnt read like its an authors first work. this is pure magic. just the imagery alone is outstanding - it showcases dealing with grief, family relations, and first love in such beautiful and colourful way! i really hope emily pan chooses to write another book because i am in desperate need for more ...
  • Elise (TheBookishActress)
    2017-09-24
    Once upon a time we were the standard colors of a rainbow, cheery and certain of ourselves. At some point, we all began to stumble into the in-betweens, the murky colors made dark and complicated by resentment and quiet anger. At some point, my mother slid so off track she sank into hues of gray, a world drawn only in shadows. This deserved its spot on the NYT bestsellers list. Actually, it deserved higher and to stay longer.First of all, the wr...
  • Khanh, first of her name, mother of bunnies
    2018-03-21
    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of suicide because of how unwilling we are to talk about our problem, and the unwillingness of our family to confront it.There have been numerous suicides among famous...
  • Warda
    2019-05-01
    “Believing is a type of magic. It can make something true.” Why is it that when books mesh so well with your being you find it difficult to express the intense sense of euphoria that is enveloping you?Instead, all I can come up with is: this is SO good.Pathetic.What do I say? I mean, I knew I was going to love this based on the blurb. I remember picking it up whilst I was at Waterstones, and there was no way I could've left the shop without p...
  • Emily (Books with Emily Fox)
    2019-04-14
    I pick up this audiobook because of the reviews. I was sucked into the hype.It's a beautiful coming of age book about grief, hope, finding yourself. Unfortunately Magical Realism isn't for me.
  • Cindy Pham
    2019-05-15
    While I appreciate the themes of mental health and inclusion of Asian stories, I found the narrative and writing style to be very trite. She repeatedly uses metaphors for colors to reinforce the main character’s passion for art, but it comes across forced and cheesy. Half of the story’s focus is on the romantic subplot (at best it’s cute, but otherwise irrelevant). The other half focuses on her mother’s mental health and family background...
  • C.G. Drews
    2017-07-14
    Ohhhh this was emotional and super super sad and yet entirely gorgeously written. We have utterly been bLESSED by the existence of this author and her words and afjkdslad I want to read everything she ever writes. I absolutely love how the emotions were told in colours here. It made me just want to swim in a bucket of paint tbh. Right after I finished swimming in mY TEARS. I actually don't cry while reading, but I felt that hot prickle of tears b...
  • Larry H
    2018-05-07
    4.5 stars, rounded up.Lyrical, emotionally powerful, even fantastical at times, The Astonishing Color of After is a stunning, poignant look at grief, family, love, and secrets that packs a real punch, and leaves you with gorgeous images in your mind. "We try so hard to make these little time capsules. Memories strung up just so, like holiday lights, casting the perfect glow in the perfect tones. But that picking and choosing what to look at, wh...
  • Sana
    2018-07-01
    Trust me, no one's more disappointed than me because y'all don't know how bad I wanted to love this book!! I was just so bored during the middle 200 pages of this book because it's a very slow book + there was a lot of girl hate that annoyed me so much. But despite that, it's still an important and good book.This is a book about a girl whose mother has committed suicide. Leigh is suffering the loss of her mother, who she sees as a bird after her ...
  • Elena
    2018-05-09
    Once upon a time we were the standard colors of a rainbow, cheery and certain of ourselves. At some point, we all began to stumble into the in-betweens, the murky colors made dark and complicated by resentment and quiet anger. At some point, my mother slid so off track she sank into hues of gray, a world drawn only in shadows. Contemporary and magical realism, a strange combination that does not happen often. First book I ever read that included...
  • destiny ♡⚔♡ [howling libraries]
    2018-06-18
    This is, without a doubt, one of the most beautiful books I have ever read, and it completely and utterly wrecked me. In case you aren’t aware, major trigger warnings for suicide and mental illness in the book and this review—proceed with caution and take care of yourself. ♥ My mother is free in the sky. She doesn’t have the burden of a human body, is not made up of a single dot of gray. My mother is a bird. First of all, the writing in...
  • Em Lost In Books
    2019-01-31
    This was the debut that I wanted to read most last year but I couldn't. The beautiful cover, equally intriguing blurb, and the all those glowing reviews, it piqued my interest in this story. So I decided to remedy it early this year before I get lured away into some other fantasy world. Oh boy, this was a disappointment. My own fault though, I guess I started with expecting too high.Leigh's mother commits suicide and she starts seeing a bird, whi...
  • April
    2018-04-04
    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story.
  • may ❀
    2018-06-29
    im legit more disappointment in this book than i am in the world cup okay maybe thats a sliiiiight exaggeration this book started off SOSOSOSOSO GOOD but it was SO long and i started to find the writing grow so TEDIOUS and then the mystic plot just began to overwhelm everything and i just wasn't feeling it gahhhh im so sad. i wish it was more contemporary than mystic bc the magic realism aspect made me more confused and underwhelmed than anything...
  • Korrina (OwlCrate)
    2017-12-12
    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I’ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite.
  • Joshee Kun (조수아)
    2018-02-21
    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward.Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for saying that he didn't know why people get depressed. These events in the K-pop world piqued my interest and made me realize that depression isn't something that shouldn...
  • Eliza
    2018-04-02
    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn’t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel.Wow, okay, this book went through so many ups and downs. But it doesn’t matter because it ended up being more unique and touching than I thought it would/could be -- and I couldn't be any happier by that!The openin...
  • Gabby
    2018-03-29
    Closer to a 4.5 stars "Memory is mean thing, slicing at you from the harshest angles, dipping your consciousness into the wrong colors again and again." Wow, this book was gorgeously written and heart-breaking and amazing. This story follows a young girl named Leigh who has just discovered her mother has killed herself. This story is about her discovering her families history that she never knew about, and going to her Mother's birth place, and d...
  • Lily ☁️
    2018-02-01
    A COPY OF THIS BOOK FOUND ITS WAY INTO MY HANDS TODAY, AND I’M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW MY HEART IS BURSTING.Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1’s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc)Pretty, pretty please, let me love this.*A female, half-Asian main character, a storyline set in Taiwan (!!!), and elements of mag...
  • Yusra ✨
    2018-05-15
    that was one of the most beautiful books I have ever read in my life. it was stunning. I don’t have words. review to come when I can breathe again ————I am ready to be torn apart. buddy read with Caidyn and Melanie!