How She Died, How I Lived by Mary Crockett

How She Died, How I Lived

I was one of five. The five girls Kyle texted that day. The girls it could have been. Only Jamie--beautiful, saintly Jamie--was kind enough to respond. And it got her killed.On the eve of Kyle's sentencing a year after Jamie's death, all the other "chosen ones" are coping in various ways. But our tenacious narrator is full of anger, stuck somewhere between the horrifying past and the unknown future as she tries to piece together why she gets to l...

Details How She Died, How I Lived

TitleHow She Died, How I Lived
Release DateNov 13th, 2018
PublisherLittle, Brown Books for Young Readers
GenreYoung Adult, Contemporary, Realistic Fiction, Fiction

Reviews How She Died, How I Lived

  • alana ♡
    Never in my life have a reached out to an author after finishing a book until now. That's how powerful I felt this story was and I am so incredibly grateful to have been given the opportunity to read this.Our narrator struggles throughout the entire story with why she got to live and Jamie had to die. When the murder trial re-opens one year after Jamie's death to determine if her murderer, Kyle, should receive the death penalty, the MC then start...
  • Kayla Brunson
    "I want to be alive. And to be okay with being alive."I went into this book expecting to come out an emotional wreck. Sadly, that wasn't my outcome. In short, this book lacked the dept that I was expecting and was really formed as just another contemporary.Now, I'm not saying that it's a bad book. This covers topics from survivor's guilt, moving on, and being true to yourself. I feel like we could have really dived more deeply into those emotions...
  • TL
    Wow, just wow... this one will stay with me
  • PinkAmy loves books, cats and naps
    1.5 STARSWhen people say, “Don’t judge a book by its cover,” believe them. The cover and blurb of HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED made me think I’d read an emotionally-charged thriller. Instead the book left me not caring.Mary Crockett’s writing is the strongest part of the book, the plot and characters are the weakest. HOW SHE DIED, HOW I LIVED is filled with dysfunctional relationships, often due to lack of communication, yet Crockett rarel...
  • ✿Nancy✿
    “I am many things, but loveable isn't one of them.”How She Died, How I Lived was very underwhelming and incredibly boring!! Really this book just fell short and I struggled to get through it. Not much of anything exciting happens either. I don't recommend :(
  • Shelby
    I received an ARC of this novel in exchange for an honest review.I really, really enjoyed “How She Died, How I Lived,” much more than I was anticipating. I was expecting it to be a bit of a thriller, definitely on the darker side, but I was pleasantly surprised by the variety of emotion in this book. We follow our main character (who remains mysteriously unnamed) as she deals with survivor’s guilt. She and four other girls were texted by a ...
  • Ginger
    This is hard to review...I feel bad giving 5 stars to a book about a teenage girl being murdered. I just feel that it was written so well. It's told from the perspective of another teenage girl and her struggle with survivor's guilt. When murder is committed, the age of the victim doesn't matter, it's still horrible. I think when it happens to a teenager, it's worse for the friends (and family) of the victim. Teenagers feel so invincible, they're...
  • Karen Barber
    The kind of scenario that you pray nobody will ever experience.Our narrator is what many of us would regard as lucky. She was one of five girls to receive a text from Kyle that summer day. The day one girl, Jamie, responded and he raped her, attacked her and killed her. Each of the girls who received a text has to live with the knowledge that it could have been them. I can’t begin to think about how that would feel. You’d feel relief at livin...
  • Sharon
    Is it weird to read a book and never know the name of the narrator? And yet her voice was distinct, vulnerable, confused, angry, and questioning why she lived while her friend — sweet Jamie Strand — died at the hands of a former classmate.A year later the narrator still battles survivor’s guilt as she befriends Jamie’s boyfriend. Adding to her guilt is the attraction to Charlie, who surprisingly returns the affection.Out of all of this tr...
  • Sian Clark
    In summary, this was an average story told from the shallow perspective of an annoying narrator surrounded by watered down characters. It could have been great. But instead it took the potential it had to be a deep and meaningful story that dealt with a serious subject matter and wasted it by being just another basic teen drama plagued with pointless friendship drama, cringe romance and a love triangle. Plagued with often contradictory 'feminist ...
  • Christy
    A solid 3 star read. This is the story of dealing with survivor’s guilt and reconciling anger and forgiveness. I like that it explores both options and that the narrator remains unnamed - this story could be any of ours.
  • Sarah {Literary Meanderings}
    Hated the love interest in this one. Ugh. Review to come
  • Red_Queen_Lover
    This was goodIt was very different from what I was expecting while buying it, but I did enjoy reading itI thought it was going to be suspenseful, maybe even kind of scary, like a thriller because when you read the summary it seems that wayIt was not, however, like a thriller. Although it was different from what I thought and hoped it would be, it was still a good book
  • Heidi
    I don't even remember placing a hold on this book but here I am. This was the in-between book as I read Thunderhead (which I'm LOVING... can't say the same about this one) I just read the synopsis and I was intrigued and thought it would be amazing. However, this was NOT good at all. After I finished reading, I searched the genre and of course, it was contemporary. It's supposed to be about the murder of Jamie, who was one of the five girls that ...
  • Crystal Zavala
    First, let me say that I should have checked to see who the target audience was before I started this book. The book cover says 14+, so I am going to take that to mean that it is considered to be YA. After reading the book, I would definitely agree that it is written for a high schooler. The topics are probably a little too heavy for a middle reader. Because I didn't realize that the book was written for 14-18 year olds, I initially struggled wit...
  • Paige Green
    Disclaimer: I received this book from KidLitExchange. Thanks! All opinions are my own.Rating: 3/5Publication Date: November 13th, 2018Genre: YA ContemporaryRecommended Age: 15+ (survivor’s guilt, tragedy, regret, grief, mature scenes, romance) (trigger warning for rape and murder)Pages: 416Author WebsiteAmazon LinkSynopsis: I was one of five. The five girls Kyle texted that day. The girls it could have been. Only Jamie--beautiful, saintly Jamie...
  • Lily C.
    I chose this book because Ms. Hughes had read it earlier this year, and the short description she gave intrigued me. I'm a sucker for teen novels, especially those serious ding scandal or death, and this book seemed like the perfect mix of the two. I think the reason I'm so drawn to books written from a teen perspective is that I myself am a teenager, and hearing a voice so like my own tell a story so much more interesting than my life is like he...
  • Katie Thomas
    Honestly, wow. I can't tell you how much I loved this book. I've always been intrigued with murders and the gruesome gory stuff, so when I found this book I was immediately interested, but what won me and made me so excited about reading the book was the romance between Charlie (the boyfriend of the girl who was killed) and the main character (a girl the killer almost killed). I loved how the story was told. Texts were included which made you fee...
  • Stephanie Ward
    'How She Died, How I Lived' is a very relevant and heartbreaking young adult contemporary novel that deals with several important topics and real life scenarios. I know that there's supposed to be a silver lining in this book, a sense of hope that filters through. But for me, this book was just incredibly sad and thought provoking. The topics that it covers - survivor's guilt, death, hate, love, forgiveness, moving on, being true to yourself (to ...
  • Nick
    Mary Crockett's novel "How She Died, How I Lived" resonated deep in my bones in a number of ways. At first glance, the book tackles an unfortunately real scenario that we are forced to encounter and endure; the violence that women are subjected to, often merely for being women, is grossly and painstakingly true. The contents of this novel did so much more than rely on the controversially relevant subject matter to propel itself forward—this com...
  • Kate
    ***I received a free eArc from Edelweiss***Although the hook is what caught me- 5 local girls are sent a text that only one of them answers, and when she meets with the boy they all know, she is brutally beaten, raped, and murdered- I stayed for the MC's grief and sense of being outside her old life. A year later and our main character, un-named, is dealing with survivor's guilt, her world once more rocked by the killer's upcoming sentencing. She...
  • Sue (BeautyBookCorner)
    1.5 Stars -- I felt like the author had some great intentions with the message she wanted to convey, but personally, I felt the execution failed miserably. There were small snippets where we get hit in the face with how prevalent rape culture and sexually predatory behavior is in our society and how this culture leads to violence against women. I applaud the author for feeling so convicted by seeing news of violence against young women to write t...
  • Kaylee
    Wow!! This book was such a page-turner. I loved how it was written and found the style to be quite effective. My only wish is that it could’ve gone into the reasoning why the horrible event spurring this story occurred, but I 100% understand that that wasn’t the point of the book. It was a book about learning to be okay with living in the aftermath of tragedy, and I think that the book did just that in telling this story. Beyond glad I read i...
  • Shelly
    2.5 stars rounded up. I think I’m over YA novels like this one. Perhaps I’m just tired of teenagers . 2.5 stars rounded up. I think I’m over YA novels like this one. Perhaps I’m just tired of teenagers 😜.
  • Sue Holmes
    The story is slow-paced and overexplained. There are a few improbable aspects which distract and an exceptionally selfish and unlikeable main character.
  • Carlye Krul
    I did not enjoy this book. It was so boring, flat, and predictable. Also, there was too much language for my liking. Don't read it, it's not worth your time.